As I sit for maybe 5 minutes until Brian, Gregory and Adam come in from Awana…….. I shall type a bit…..

Tonight I went back and fourth as to if I should go to Awana or not.  Gideon has been sneezing and had a bit of a runny nose for a couple days and he gets like this with the wind many times.  Luke too.  He’s just had this on going COUGH that happens when he lays down, so he hasn’t napped lately because he coughs so much he throws up.  So today was one of those days……….

Last minute I decided to cancel Becca from coming over to sit with the two youngest.  Gideon just seemed fussy and well I wanted to get Luke down EARLY because he needed it. 

I’m so glad I decided to miss.  Gideon got a fever so he’s fighting something more than the winds……. Luke missed Cubbies and watched a cartoon and had popcorn and went to bed early.  After our stories,  I gave him cough meds and Benedryl and guess what? NO COUGHING when he laid down (oh and I set up the vaporizer in his room so it would be pre-moist in there.  So one of those things helped! Got Gideon down early too after we read some books. 

Then I sat by the tree and nursed and rocked my baby to sleep.  I sat there and I thought…… and thought……

Sometimes a Mom has to go by her gut!

I didn’t want to skip out on my commitment.  I didn’t want to leave my little cute Cubbie group hanging.  However, I needed to be home with my babies.  I’m glad I stayed.

I’m feeling a bit torn. 

I love Awana.  I want my kids in it.  I’m happy its in Fillmore.  I want to keep it “alive”.  I don’t want to let my Mom down by leaving her hanging with leading it.  However, I think I need to be home on Tuesdays (at least most). 

I’m praying I can find someone to switch off with me so I can still work some in Awana but still be home when I need to be. 

I know… horrid cell quality pic… but isn’t he the sweetest thing?!