They are thinking now that he has gout.  Could be throughout the body.  Also pnemonia based on the left lung x-ray.  He’s not eating much at all and can’t get up on his own, can’t even really get up.   If they need to do tests, they have  machine that moves him from bed to chair or bed to bed.  Seems like I keep hoping and praying that healing will come and I’m nervous that it won’t.  Is that lack of faith?  Its been tough on him and extremely emotional roller coaster around here lately.  Tomorrow I’m going down with Mom to see Pop.

I am not the emotional type.  I don’t cry at movies.  I don’t cry a lot.  Unless I’m pregnant and then emotions seem to be outta whack at times.  However, with my dad and all this its been a lot of tears coming on and off.  I have so many memories and so many things that I think about.  I’m trying to be strong and not cry but its so hard.  I think of my boys growing up and only having small memories of grandparents, and my little guys (and gal) not having many memories at all.  I think of my Luke Samuel who adores Pop so much! They are buddies.  For the past months Pop has asked Luke “what happens to old people”. The first time he did that Luke matter-of-factly answered “they die”….. we all chuckled and Pop got a laugh.  He asked Luke this again on his way being wheeled in the wheel chair to the car on the way to the hospital last Sunday.  It was so sad.  I don’t know why Pop asked this at that time.

Luke Samuel with Pop 2010

Luke formed a special bond with Pop that none of my others have.  Gosh this is hard to type, because my eyes flood with tears.   I think of my parents as they come up on their anniversary April 5th.  So many years.  So many years of teaching and being an example to us.  Love them both so much and praying that Pop pulls through this trial, this storm and can bring GLORY to GOD through and after all this……....

Seeing my Dad the way he is is really hard.  Knowing the pain that he is in and the thoughts that run through my mind are draining.  I find JOY that He KNOWS the Lord. Knowing that alone is a complete comfort.  Knowing that one day he will be complete pain free and singing praises in heaven is a joyful thought.  Its a mixed kinda thought though, because we want to see complete healing.  We want to see him get better.  We want him home! Praying for that too!

God’s strength won’t forsake me in weakness.  He bears my burdens.  He will carry us during hard times in our life.  I’m so glad we can have a shelter in this storm right now.  He is faithful and a comfort.  Often times I look at life and see hard trials people go through and how God works things out to those who LOVE Him.  He really does.  He does carry us too.  No trial he can’t help us through.  His strength is what I live on some days.  This past week has been one of the biggest trials for us so far.  The stuff we went through with Gideon was up there and this week has been hard.  Emotionally, and physically draining.  Been hit at every angle.

We found out today that the carpet pad got wet.  For a long time now.  When it was pulled up, it exposed a smell that is pretty bad.  Stronger than the musty smell I was smelling before.  We think we will just rip it out.  Going to have to get someone else to come get it out.  I’m nervous about the mold in the air now too.  Gideon and Luke are still coughing and now Gideon seems to have like 10 ringworm spots on his skin.  We are still working on getting that laundry room and Gregory’s room finished.  Its been a project that has been tough with the little guys around.

Work in progress….. Cutting out all the moldy stuff.

Gideon moved into Titus and Adam’s Room.  He’s in a playpen in there.  Adam and Luke are sleeping in the Family room.  We don’t want them sleeping in their room breathing in that air until it gets cleaned out.

The cap on the water line cracked.  EVERYTHING got soaked in the Laundry room.  All our storage.

Mold found on Luke and Gideon’s room under that carpet.  Once the carpet was lifted it brought out a smell that was really really strong.

 Gregory has been sleeping at my Mom and Dads house since Mom went to South Dakota (Feb 9th).  He was there while Mom was gone to SD, then we had all these mold problems so he’s had to be out of his room.   I think he’s been a blessing for my mom this week, just having him there.

Gregory’s little nook, in progress.  Long progress. Pic decieving you can’t see what is behind me!