Luke Samuel seems to be having a hard time with Pop’s death.  I feel like I still am at times too……just feels so UNREAL to me still.  Like, its hard to fathom that he is gone……  He’s gone.  I know I will get to see him again, but that seems so far off.  I know our days are numbered and God has the it all worked out, it is still hard and especially with a little boy who is dealing with grief.

But Luke…. oh he is just angry.  He seems MAD and pushes away.  He’s mean to me a lot of times.  Certain days more than others.  

I’m having trouble knowing what to say to him.  We pray.  We read.  We talk.  Still, its been hard.  

He’s a thinker! His mind wanders.

At naptime a lot comes out.  Outta the blue.  The other day it was about Girl, Roostew and Pop.  Anger.

I want him to cry.  I want him to just need me to hold him.  But, his grief style is different.  He’s just mad.  Angry.  I feel like he is afraid to get CLOSE to anyone for fear of loosing that person maybe.  I hope that time will heal those feelings and that he will be able to love strong and close again.

Granma is great at talking deeply with him.  She experiences that same deep pain that he does and she has been really great at reaching out to him even though at times he pushes her away too.

Praying for this little guy and his sad heart.  Lord, comfort and heal and draw him to you!