Daily he takes his sweet double jointed hands and picks flowers to bring to me. Sometimes its some orange ones taken from those that climb over the neighbors fence into our yard. Those are sweet and I put them in the vase he made for me at Christmas. Often times I’m handed a pile of dandelions with hardly a stem on them. He is always giving and so loving. The past few weeks he’s been more loving and huggable. Always offering hugs to me. I’m loving this because he never used to be this way. Sometimes he thinks of other people who might like flowers, all on his own. Happily he asks if he can go over to their house with his little pile of flowers in hand. He is oh so proud to give and perhaps bless another persons heart.
He’s always looking to God’s beauty. God’s amazing creation. Aware of the creation around him and he wants to point it out to us. He’s always stopping and taking time to notice. He notices and cares about the details. He looks up and points out the stars, and the moon. Above “man made” things he sees all that God has made and admires them. I love this amazing quality in Gideon Josiah.
As I sit here unable to go to church with the family because our car battery died and the truck would be too crammed for all of us. I was mad at first. I look forward to the fellowship and hearing God’s Word preached and being challenged by the message. However, I realized it was all meant to be. It was meant so that I could have quiet time. Just me and God. I needed this time to reflect and think about my times with Him.
Gideon reminded me that God is the same way with us. God looks down upon us, His creation, the ones He loves. He looks at every detail of our lives, all the piles of problems and trials. He cares. He loves us so much. Even when we are sinful. He notices and holds our hand. He cares. He can see what is ahead and He knows what I need. He knew I needed this time of reflection during a quiet morning at home. As a mother of six it is rare to have complete silence in the morning. I love that God really does care about the details in our life. He pricks our heart at just that right moment, it is up to us to respond. This morning I responded.
He not only cares, but He desires for us to come to Him. Seek Him. He longs for us to bring him “flowers” of fellowship and drink up that living water that will quench our thirst. Sometimes we have a dry time with the Lord. I feel at times I get so busy with life and tending to my children that my quiet time with him isn’t always as it should be. The relationship becomes more distant than I want. I was able to listen to a message this morning while I nursed Annie Mae to sleep for her nap. It really hit me and flowed right along with my thoughts that God had laid upon my heart.
She was sharing a verse in Song of Solomon “By night on my bed I sought the one I love; I sought him, but I did not find him. “I will rise now,” I said, “And go about the city; in the streets and in the squares, I will seek the one I love.” I sought him, but I did not find him. The watchmen who go about the city found me; I said, “Have you seen the one I love?” Scarcely had I passed by them, when I found the one I love. I held him and would not let him go (Song Sol. 3, vv. 3–4)” She was first missing, then seeking then finding the one she loved. This can give us insight into a marriage that has lost intimacy and also our walk with Christ when things just aren’t right.
We have to be willing to pursue Him and return to Him in repentance, rise and get up to be restored to intimacy with Him. Charles Spurgeon said it this way: “Love cannot bear to be a distance from the loved one. Where there is true love to Jesus Christ, we cannot bear to be away from Him.” I love that. It is so true too! This life can have so many distractions that can pull us from the true living God. However, He still desires communion with us. He wants us to seek Him and have that unbroken relationship. I realized this morning that I needed to STOP and be still for a moment and seek God. And in those moments take time to notice Him and ask Him to search my heart and draw me close.
