Such a flood of emotions hit me today. Why does that have to happen right during church? Thinking of Gregory and how in 4 months he will be a High School graduate! I keep thinking, How on earth can this be? I feel like I just graduated High school! He’s such a wonderful young man and I know God has a great plan for his life! His last High School Basketball games will be this coming week! I’m sure he’s feeling the floods of emotions that I remember in High School too. Why is the word LAST so hard? Its sad to see chapters go! I remember saying my LAST goodbye to my dad, oh my goodness just doing that was so difficult. Annie Mae has always started out in church with us and as she’s gotten older we take her down to the nursery after a few songs. Today was probably the last for that. That hit me! She’s more than likely my LAST baby too. She will probably start the preschool Sunday school class next week. She’s been potty training (she’s gone poop in the potty for a while now, but pee has taken longer). Last of diapers too, probably forever in our house. How weird is that feeling?! It hits a Mom kinda hard when they come all at once. Titus just moved out of his tiny toddler bed and into a bed that Brian made for him in his room up off the ground, another LAST. No more toddler beds in our house. The crib pieces are sitting out in front of the garage now too and ready to give to someone else. That tune plays in my head “Lifes about change and nothing ever stays the same” …. isn’t that the truth!?
I’m not called to keep my kids little forever. I’m not called to keep them under my roof forever. I’m not called to baby them forever. I’m called to be their mother. I’m called to bring them up in the Lord, train them, disciple them, love them, listen to them, be there for them, teach, lead and direct them. Do all of this so that they can grow up and hopefully serve and honor God with their life and ultimately bring GLORY TO GOD! We pray that for our children. I know all of this and still its kinda sad thinking of the Lasts. I don’t think I will be able to read “Let me hold you a little longer” anytime soon.
