Almost 36 weeks pregnant. Stayed home from church. I’m fighting a little cold and feeling much better today but somedays I think I get more out of staying home and getting quiet time to reflect in His Word and worship alone in a house alone.  Titus needed a little nap too so it seemed the right time for me to stay home.  

 “Will I joyfully pour out my life as a fragrant offering before the Lord for the benefit of my children? Will I serve my children out of obligation and duty or will I serve out of the joy of serving God himself? Will I die to myself so that I might live to God in the specific calling he is given me as a mom? The every day question must be answered every day. Because motherhood is not so much the big dramatic act of sacrifice but the little every day unseen ones. Because we can have a clean house and obedient children and not sacrifice. Because we are so easily deceived to think we can live for ourselves and be faithful to God in our ministry as moms.”  

Its so easy to fall into the trap these days of saying I need ME time.  We all do need that time but all too often we don’t say enough how can I sacrifice, what can I give up?  I want to choose JOYFULLY to give up things for my children and husband.  Its something we must choose to do EVERYDAY.  Its a question we must ask ourselves daily.  Something not just of duties, but mostly of ATTITUDE.  I feel I fail so often in my attitude about things.  My heart wants to always be servantly (that’s not a word is it??) joyful but its doesn’t always come out.  Life gets in the way and my attitude can stink sometimes! 

I pray that I can be more of a servant Mommy and show God’s love and Grace daily! More often than not!