I must learn to rest in God’s Hands.  He knows each and every one of our needs before they even come up.  As parents we have a tough job sometimes.  Lots of times really.  I feel so incredibly honored that God has called me to be a mother and Brian a father.  Together we can raise these warriors for the Lord and launch these children into the world in whatever God has planned for their life.  May God give us the wisdom we need to raise these guys up for His kingdom.  To think too, that God KNEW each one of our children before they were even created and born.  He knew they were meant for our family.  He hand picked them for us to raise.  What an honor God has placed before Brian and I. We must always look at it that way too. Even on those days where I think I just can’t do it.  His Grace is sufficient for me.  He covers me.  He carries me.  

For a while I held tightly to the surprising news that I was pregnant again.  Brian and I have known for a while now, and we both held on a little longer this time.  We just sorta privately talked about it and discussed it.  For the first couple days I was really shocked.  I think mainly shocked because “my plans” had been altered.  I had planned to wait to have anymore until Titus was a little older.  Since Luke/Gideon and Gideon/Titus are all about the same distance from each other we thought it would be neat to space it out a little more.  However, God really didn’t like that plan and His plan is always far better than our own.  God wanted us to have a 14 yr. old, an 11yr old, and 4 kids 5 years and under.   Once I got over the initial surprise, I was excited.  It was so hard holding in the news from certain people.  I had the hardest time and even in that first week had people ask “are you going to have anymore children” and more pregnancy talk.  It was so hard! However, it was sorta fun holding on to that secret for a little longer.  We had planned to wait til the end of June.  However, we couldn’t.  I feel like I’m gonna start showing sooner than later and my clothes aren’t gonnd fit.  ha ha!

I think too, I held on to the news for several reasons (some I won’t share here) but one was worried about what other people might think.  I notice the more kids you have the less people seem joyful and excited for you.  They give you more of the “oh my goodness you are crazy” “oh my you are gonna have your hands full” “wow, do you know what causes that” etc…. etc…  and maybe they say congrats but they have a TONE in their voice that makes you feel kind of awkward.  I remember when we were pregnant with Titus similar reactions.  Kinda sad actually! 

This is a little human that God made.  How exciting.  No matter what the amount of kids in our family.  This baby is still special and his own person who needs to be celebrated too! 

We are excited to announce that we are having another baby in Jan. 2015.