I feel so busy! Being a Mom is truly a joy and a blessing but its a lot of work to strive to do it to what God wants.  I’m a busy Mom, sorting through life and trying see what God wants from me. 

I was telling Brian last night that having Luke and Gideon closer together put a whole new spin on things.  We were used to Gregory being 3 when Adam was born and by the time Luke came around Adam was already six so it was busy but not as busy as it is now. In just a few short months it is going to get even busier.  Ha ha! And I’m ok with that.  God will give me what I need to stay sane!

I’ve come to realize (well sort of…. ) that I just can’t do it all and do it perfectly the way I have it played out in my head.  Some things I was realizing the other night:

*I’m sort of a neat freak and want things picked up constantly and well that doesn’t always happen anymore.  I think I’m gonna have to realize this soon that it can’t be a “better homes and garden home” while the kids are young and growing.  And truly, why should I stress about that? Brian often tells me to “leave it” “don’t worry about picking up” etc… It is just something that bugs me and I can’t feel “relaxed” if things are out of place.  Gonna have to get over it, and I haven’t yet.

*I had a goal last year to complete my photo album for 2012 and 2011.  Didn’t happen! There just isn’t enough time in the day! I take a lot (A LOT) of pictures and well I just didn’t have the “extra” time to sit and work on them.  I hope to slowly work through them though.  Maybe I won’t put a deadline.

*I so desire my Bible time to be FIRST thing in the morning.  That so does not happen all the time.  It all depends on the night and how the kids sleep, how I sleep etc.  I have to realize this is a season that I just get to it when I see a block of time that will work! It’s hard having that quiet time with the Lord with little kids.  I’m not good at night working on it.  Lord, give me that time.  I need it above all else.

*I cherish our date nights.  We have goaled since before marriage to ALWAYS make time for dates.  We do a pretty good job at it.  This year we talked and wanted to be sure to get out to do something just alone at least once a week!  I think now more than ever I look forward to that break and that time with Brian.  Its needed and desired by both of us.  Hopefully we can keep up with this and do it weekly!

*Some days I long for 8-9PM to come around when all the house is quiet 🙂

*Praying the Lord leads and directs me on how I should serve in ministry at church.  At times I’m feeling a bit stretched and not sure this is good for anyone in our family or anyone I’m serving. 

*I want to write more.  Sometimes thoughts come to mind and I really need to jot them down and blog them more than I do! Again… there is that issue of TIME !

*Boys are growing so fast.  I was talking with Luke the other night and told him he has to stay THREE forever and he said “no mommy, I growing up.  I grow up and like football like Daddy likes”.  Ha ha! He says the most funny things and I just want to keep him little forever.  And Gregory and Adam are shooting up so big.  I just want to keep them all from growing so fast.  This Season will be over all to soon I am sure.  Luke climbed in our bed two times last night and I just didn’t mind.  I kept thinking…. Gregory doesn’t do this anymore! This won’t last forever.  Kinda makes me sad thinking how life goes so fast.  Makes me think too of our purpose here on this earth (a whole other article….)

* God is just AMAZING! Ya know? He gives us GRACE and MERCY when we fail so many times! And I just LOVE Him and thank Him for all He has done in my life.  I honestly can’t imagine going through this life WITHOUT HIM. 

*So, I’ve sort of cleared my head.  Sometimes, it just helps to ramble.  Now to get the little ones ready for a Dr. appt.  I think Gideon has an ear infection. He hasn’t been himself this week and woke 4-5 times last night (not like him).  I guess I’ve used up my time to pick up the living room and kitchen before we leave.  Oh well right?! It will all wait for me to come back to clean it up! 🙂 Sometimes ya just have to take a break from life and clear your head a little.