I think God has a sense of humor!

Really I do.

He likes to have me do the “nevers”.  All the things I have said I would never do.  Funny though, all those seem to be ways that God has really blessed me and really shown me that His ways are much better than those that I have in my own small mind!

Never getting married (best thing I did)
Never having kids (2nd best thing)
Never getting a mini van (with kids, its really a good thing)
Never going to church outside my hometown (one of the greatest things for our family is our church family)
Never homeschooling

Adam needed to be pulled from public school the middle of his 4th grade year.  It was a tough thing for this Mama to do.  Tough because I’m a firm believer in PUBLIC school for Christian families! I’ve always felt it was good to be that light and example as a family.  For Adam though he was struggling bad.  So we prayed a lot and I kept pushing that voice down inside that tried to get me to think just a tad about homeschool.  We put him in the Christian Academy.  Great experience for Adam.  He made some nice friends and enjoyed it but the school part was still really hard for him especially when he got to 6th grade.  So in Jan. of his 6th grade year at FCA we pulled him.  It was getting to hard to keep him up and guide him.  I kept shoving the homeschool idea out of my head but K12 kept coming to mind.  Figured it wasn’t really “homeschool” anyway since they just give you everything and he does it all on the computer.  Figured I didn’t have to do anything, he would just get his work done and then that be that.  For 1 year and 1/2 we’ve been at it.  While it is nice that everything is handed to you and he checks in with the teacher etc… its not easy for someone like Adam.  He doesn’t seem to learn and he doesn’t like ANY subjects!

A week ago…. when I stumbled upon that video…. and I listened to that audio book….. my eyes were really opened.

Through some friends and that new friend I met they help guide me to things that Adam could use as learning resources.  They made me see that learned (most of it) should be more fun and not so dreaded!

I realized that its ok to keep things at a slower easy going pace.  I don’t have to be a rubber band and making sure he’s checking E.V.E.R.Y S.I.N.G.L.E thing off the list!! We can move slower, we can pick things he’s interested in, we can get to things that I think are needed and important for him to learn (typing skills, cursive, Bible), that we haven’t got to get to because we’ve been cramming to get other things done and keep up to date.

So, I’m sure God is just laughing….. “Spring , Spring…. when will you realize that my plans are better”…..

I loved all the great reminders in the sermon today

1. I can POUR OUT my heart to God…..I don’t have to HOLD in my frustrations.  I can pour my heart out to God.  He’s gonna hear me.

2.  I need to realize that my choices are impacting others.  The things I say, do and think are impacting my family.

3.  Realize that God is way bigger.  He’s got the BIG picture.  I can only see a little bit of it, or what has already been done.  I need to PRAY that God will open my eyes to see what I can’t see.  That God will show me how possibly this homeschool decision will impact those around me.  Focus on God’s attributes. He’s much bigger!  Be in the WORD daily.

“WHAT IF THE HARDEST THING I’VE GONE THROUGH (or going through), ENDS UP BEING THE BEST”? (Pastor Mike).


That hit me today! 

God has really been speaking to my heart lately. Not ONLY to homeschool or not to homeschool…. more about my attitude.  I truly do need to step back and allow God to transform my mind so that I can be the wife/mom and person HE wants me to be.  To live my life for His Glory.  After all we are only here for a little while.   I want my kids to grow up and leave with fond memories of their childhood.  That we loved them, raised them to know and love Him above all else.  We pray always that each of them will have a saving relationship with Jesus too.

So, all this to say… I humbly realize that God truly knows what He’s doing and has the plan.  I will move out of the way and strive to LET GO and LET GOD have it all and direct us.

On to the rest of the year doing homeschool with Adam.  Titus and Annie Mae will get to join in the fun too.  As far as the rest…. well…. just gonna see how life works it all out.  God will show us.  I have no doubt.